First Serious Stuff, then tags (Don't ya worry, I won't tag anyone!).
So I was in denial...
I wasn't able to admit my limited capabilities. I wasn't able to admit to myself that I couldn't draw requests without being emotionally involved into the characters/landscape. Stupidity.
Almost a year passed now and I still lied to myself: "You can do these requests!"
A year of no progress. How many proper pictures did I make? Three? Four?
I know that I have to take the time that a picture needs to be drawn but this is just unproductive.
I'm mentally not capable. I finally realized that I can't draw several things at the same time and don't have the skill for certain pictures. After a year. I realized that one sentence. After a whole year of self-distraction and denial!
So I'll focus on one picture at a time again. I will take the time for one picture to grow and to evolve.
That means, I will wipe all the requests i got so far. If I don't do that It'll take ages to finish anykind of bigger artwork!
To anyone who requested something: I'm sorry. I appreciate your patience but there is no motivation left. I wouldn't be able to finish them.
I'm not saying I'll stop doing requests/commissions forever. First I have to find a way to organize myself art-wise. Maybe by offering one or two request/commission slots. Working on it.
First tag questions by
1) If you could be in any anime, which one would it be?
Haganai. I'd really enjoy being in this club and join all the activities. ;A;
2) If you can be reincarnated as anything, what would you be?
A tree. Just there. No responsibilities. *sigh*
3) Everyone contains regret in some form. If you can erase or redo an event in your life, what will you delete?
I'd redo my A-Level.
4) If you can be a pro of any one thing in the world, what would it be?
Drawing or Speech.
5) Who, or what is your biggest rival? Or in other words, what interferes with your happiness?
Academic expectations. I want to learn things in my own speed.
6) Do you like your name? If not, what kind of name do you wish you had instead?
I like Scayged as my name. Only thing I forgot was to consider the pronounciation. :'D
7) Is there a song that best describes you? If so, what is it?
Anything instrumental that fits into the genre of meditational music, eastern choral music, chopin-esque piano works or calming orchestral pieces. (Rather different to the music I actually hear: Metal, DnB, rather epic OSTs. Heh.)
8) "A smart person is a lazy person." Do you think this is true? Why or why not?
Depends on the situation. I'd say it's more important to work hard for something. You can be smart but you're not smarter if you don't seize your potential.
9) You have 1 hour left until your death. What are you going to do?
Try to have a good time. Maybe play Stepmania or draw a farewell picture.
10) If you can go back to the past, in what era and place will you be headed?
I'd stay in this era. There are things I regretted to do but these are view of the many things that makes me a person.
Some more tag questions by
1. Do you want to be a galactic pretty boy?( Oh I would. )
I know where this is coming from. (Thank you, tumblr!) Yes, I want to be fabulous too! :'D
2. Real name? ( Now don't lie honey )
Roy and then something with P that only people from eastern europe or russia can say correctly on the first try.
3. Current hobby? ( Keep it sfw please )
Drawing and Music. (Very vague, I know but sadly I can't answer with nsfw-activities.
4. Favorite anime? If you have one. ( Hmm... Mine would proberly be shingeki no kyojin but I love star driver aswell... )
Cowboy Bebop. (Thank god I don't have to decide between Date A Live, Haganai or Madoka Magicka! ;U; )
5. Do you like to be tagged? ( Honestly I like it but I think my watchers don't like the spam... )
It's a way to show your appreciation to someone, but I also know how annoying it can get.
6. WOP WOP WOP? ( *Dances* )
7. How old are you? I honestly don't ask this alot, I'm curious. ( I'm almost 20 god now I say this it makes me feel sad )
We're almost the same age then! ;D
8. Almost the end of the questions, do you like them? ( Don't say no plz )
Why yes, I do like them! *Drinks Cup of Tea*
9. Did you lie on the last question? ( tell the truth now babe )
*spills Tea out* N-no...
10. I wish I had Makoto's abs... ( what )
Sorry what? Sadly tumblr can't halp me on that one. °3°'
All tags for now!